Golden Hour

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I can’t wait to hear all these songs. You can pre-order now on iTunes

You look out the window
While I look at you
Sayin’ I don’t know
Would be like saying that the sky ain’t blue
And boots weren’t made for sitting by the door
Since you don’t wanna stay anymore

You can have your space, cowboy
I ain’t gonna fence you in
Go on ride away, in your Silverado
Guess I’ll see you ’round again
I know my place, and it ain’t with you
Sunsets fade, and love does too
Yeah, we had our day in the sun
When a horse wants to run, there ain’t no sense in closing the gate
You can have your space, cowboy

After the gold rush, there ain’t no reason to stay
Shoulda learned from the movies that good guys don’t run away
But roads weren’t made to not go down
There ain’t room for both of us in this town

So you can have your space, cowboy
I ain’t gonna fence you in
Go on ride away, in your Silverado
I’ll see you around again
‘Cause I know my place, and it ain’t with you
Sunsets fade, and love does too
We had our day in the sun
When a horse wants to run, ain’t no sense in closing the gate
So you can have your space

Kitty’s Korner

Kitty’s been spending most of her time these days at her Palm Springs condo. She’s not one for the cold weather. I called and asked if I could come up for a visit, but that’s when the phone got disconnected. Bad signal, I guess. I haven’t brought it up again. I’m supposed to text her when the pool opens back up. I hope she gets back in time to lead our summer book club kickoff.

Belch heard ’round the world

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This picture is from a couple holidays back at our family Christmas party. Right before the camera went off, my Uncle let out the loudest belch of all time, and luckily all reactions were captured. This picture always makes me laugh for several reasons:

  1. Thinking about the belch.
  2. Nobody looks good in this picture. The only person that came out well is my sister, Julie, because she got blocked. Lucky. I look like I’m in month nine of pregnancy with twins, like maybe I had to pause labor to stand up and take this pic real quick. Unfortunately, it’s a combination of stuffing myself with food beyond physical limits and wearing an unfortunate top. False alarm. If you’re not wearing loose sweats or maybe just a large sheet draped over your body to these Christmas parties, then you’re doing it wrong. Some years I eat so much food, the only way I think I can continue visiting with family members is to lie on the ground and roll room to room.                             sweat
  3. And most of all, thinking about how our family almost fell apart after my cousin posted this picture on her Facebook. Half of the family doesn’t even have Facebook, but somehow it was still offensive. The Rants, the Denials, the Disownment: Facebook the Story. And here I am posting it several years later to another internet outlet. Don’t worry fam, it’ll be seen by 20 people tops, LOL!

Perfect getaway, or spider island?

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I got a calendar this year that is about all great things in the south. One day was dedicated to Cumberland Island in Georgia, and so I looked it up and read about staying at the Greyfield Inn on the island. It really sounds like the perfect getaway. The Inn was built by the Carnegie’s in 1900. It’s been updated, but it’s historic and still has that step-back-in-time feel. The price you pay to stay there includes the ferry ride to the island (the only way to get there! already amazing), your room, all your meals, and access to all the activities including hiking, tours, bike rides, fishing, the beach, and kayaking. There is no wifi and limited cell service on the island, and no other shops. It’s just you, the inn, and nature, and the wild horses that roam around. All you need is a bad storm and a couple of murders, and you’re in a 1940’s mystery movie.

 

The problem came when I was googling reviews, and came across an alarming one about camping on the island. Now this review had NOTHING to do with staying at the inn, BUT it was about the same island. It was a couple reviewing their camping trip, which basically consisted of fleeing from spiders. Now I know I have an extreme phobia of spiders that has reached irrational levels, but their review sounded like my actual nightmares. Basically, they saw one huge spider in a web and took a picture and really thought it was something. Then they saw another one, and another one, and groups of them together. And then they realized their camp site was covered in them, and they were afraid to walk anywhere without running into one of their webs. It’s like the ending of Arachnophobia when the guy finally realizes the spiders are coming from his house and they just start popping out everywhere and dropping from the ceilings and there is no where to turn without getting a spider on you. I should have never watched that movie, and I definitely don’t need to go live it. OH! And when they asked someone about the spiders, they said, “Oh, you don’t need to worry about those, but watch out for the brown recluse!” WHAT?!!! This could be my destiny:

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I need to know what the status of spiders is on this island, and if they are a problem around this inn. Are they seasonal? Like if I went in colder temperatures, would they be gone? Are they only heavy in certain areas? I haven’t seen anyone else say anything about spiders, but I do see a lot of people say things about bugs. Do they mean actual bugs, or are they including spiders in that grouping? I need answers! I wouldn’t want to miss out on a great experience because of spider paranoia, but also don’t want to get trapped in a nightmare.

I’ve always been terrified to go to Australia, because it’s an island with ginormous spiders. And people are like, oh you don’t see them all the time. Let me be clear, once is one time too many when it comes to a huntsman. It’s called a HUNTSMAN!! What in the world! I used to think, “Oh, if you’re in a hotel or like a touristy area they’re not going to be around.” And then I listened to Chris D’elia’s podcast about being in Australia, and having a spider on his towel in the hotel. Nope.

So, I’m still undecided about potentially trying to visit the Greyfield one day. It’s not like I would be going sometime soon, but is it worth looking into more? It just sounds so neat! and I was so excited about it, and then horrified.

Questions that come with depression

How long do you just exist? What is the purpose of finding ways to delay death? What if happiness never comes? What if you feel this way forever? Can you handle it forever? Is there a reason to handle it forever? What happens when you lose the will to live? Isn’t it more selfish to ask someone to hold on to a miserable life, than to see yourself sad for five seconds at their death before you move on? Why do some people suffer so much and others not at all? Why does life reward you when you’re already up or snowball you into a pit of despair when you are already down? Why do people only take you seriously once you’re dead? Why do people shame you when you’re sad?

The biggest movement in this generation is “focusing on me right now,”  “putting me first,” “only keeping people around that benefit me right now,” and most people are hurting more than ever. How have you benefitted anyone else lately? Why are all these hurting people dying? Why is everything so lonely and unfulfilling? Will anything ever change?

 

Monday Playlist

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Chill vibes lately: I updated my spotify (emhall32) with a new playlist of songs I’ve been into lately.

Track List:

  1. Pigs Can Fly – James Bourne,  I got to have a Skype session with Chris and James Bourne last week. It was so stressful haha, but so nice of them and fun. They are truly talented musicians. This song was a side project from James, written as a tribute to Busted getting back together. You can order this song on vinyl for a limited time @ outatime.bigcartel.com or listen to it and Chris Bourne tunes on iTunes.
  2. Ordinary World – Green Day (featuring Miranda Lambert),  I love this version of the song. I love their voices together and the combination of different genres of music.
  3. The Distance – Aly and AJ
  4. Promises – Aly and AJ, I love how these two have come back with a different sound. It’s very much the 80’s type vibe that is creeping up in a lot of music right now. I love it.
  5. This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things – Taylor Swift
  6. Call It What You Want – Taylor Swift
  7. Getaway Car – Taylor Swift
  8. King of My Heart – Taylor Swift, You know I’m all about this album right now.
  9. Miss You So Much – Miley Cyrus, She has self proclaimed her tendency, and talented ability to write super sappy, sad songs, and it’s so true. I love to indulge in them.
  10. Bad Mood – Miley Cyrus
  11. She’s Not Him – Miley Cyrus
  12. Seeing Blind – Niall Horan (featuring Maren Morris), Another good collaboration. I also love Maren Morris’ album too. It’s full of well written, catchy music.
  13. Flicker – Niall Horan
  14. Too Much To Ask- Niall Horan
  15. The Joke – Brandi Carlile, I admire her song writing.

 

Favorite Lyrics:

“With the back and the forth, every hang up took the soul from me, I feel empty inside, more to lose than to try and make it better”

“I’m never gonna wait again”

“X marks the spot where we fell apart, He poisoned the well, every man for himself, I knew it from the first Old Fashioned, we were cursed, It hit you like a shotgun shot to the heart”

“This is why we can’t have nice things, honey, Because you break them, I have to take them away”

“There I was, giving you a second chance, But then you stabbed me in the back while shaking my hand”

“All the liars are calling me one, Nobody’s heard from me for months, I’m doing better than I ever was”

“When you look up at the cosmos, Do you ever wonder if there’s really even an end, It might go on forever, like my love for you, an amount that’s hard to even comprehend, I won’t waste my time with wonder, in apprehension, or livin’ life in fear, But how can I miss you so much when you’re right here?”

“I always wake up in a bad mood, I can never fall asleep, I’m always thinkin’ bout you, what life would be if we didn’t meet”

“I saw your eyes behind your hair, and you’re looking tired, but you don’t look scared”

Lifecycle of my bangs

Day 1: This looks so much better. You should always have bangs. This is what your face needs. This will be so cute for colder weather too.

Day 2: These bangs really make a difference. Why did you ever let them grow out before. Let me trim them a little to get them just right. Perfect.

Day 3: You’ve ruined yourself. (Begin grow out process)

Kitty’s Korner

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Kitty has decorated her house for Christmas. She papered the walls herself. And this was difficult, because she’s not allowed to use scissors or glue after her Easter crafting incident. She’s waiting till after Thanksgiving to string the lights and add lawn decor. She wanted a Macy’s Parade balloon to tie on the roof, but I compromised by giving her Santa’s cell number and upgrading her data plan to unlimited texting.